"Last year, my sister arranged a big surprise 50th birthday party. This year I am in a quiet space," Bhansali said. (Agencies)
Remembering his childhood days, Bhansali said, "I just want to think and write. I never believed in birthday parties. During childhood my sister and I had no birthday parties. We would take a packet of sweets to school and distribute it to our classmates. That was it,” Bhansali said.
"We never had birthday parties. Nor were we allowed to go to parties. Now it has become a habit to be on my own on my birthday," he added.
The filmmaker, whose movie "Goliyon Ki Raasleela Ram-Leela" was appreciated last year, feels more creatively fulfilled now than he ever did.
"I feel I am at that stage of my life when all my hard work, all the knowledge and experiences that I've gathered over the years, have come to fruition. I feel more fulfilled and complete today than I did when I was 40," he said.
"Today I am working harder than I did five years ago. I put in nearly 20 hours every day. And I am enjoying every bit of it," said the filmmaker, credited for films like "Black" and "Guzaarish".
At the moment, Bhansali is producing a masala movie titled "Gabbar".
"I have grown up in Bhuleshwar. I would pass through the red light area every day looking at those theatres with those eccentric names. I have grown up with the rowdies and the Gabbars all around me. I loved those movies of the early 1970s near Alfred Talkies. The humour in my life even in my in own family was filmy. It's a wonderful thing to go back to these titles," he said.
Of his life so far, the bachelor said, "All the pain, suffering, love passion and conflict have made me what I am. I make passionate love stories because I don't have love in my life. My art completes my life. My life may be unfulfilled. But it isn't unhappy".
"Last year, my sister arranged a big surprise 50th birthday party. This year I am in a quiet space," Bhansali said.